Monday, March 28, 2011

A Little Bit of Know! Alzheimer's Disease

I don't think I will want to go through the scientific definition of what Alzheimer's is. Since I am by no means a scholar, I might end up describing it ways away from it's scientific definition. So if you would like to know more about it I suggest that you visit www.alz.org for starters.

Anyways, I am sure that that would have been the first suggested site that you would see if you ever decide to google it. So I guess that I am just wasting my time telling you about that too.

I on the other hand am not in anyway related to someone with Alzheimer's. Therefore, before I head on to the topic, I must tell you that to some who are very sensitive to the topic may not like how I would phrase or state facts or things in here. I may end up having Zero-sensitivity and Zero-knowledge to the topic so you might want to transfer sites if you don't want to read a noob's ideas about it. The closest thing I could relate to the topic is watching Grey's Anatomy since it seems to be a recurring topic in the series. On the off side, I tend to forget a lot of things, especially these past few months that it made me worry enough to read snippets about it.

So, on to the topic.

The way I understand it, Alzheimer is literally the shrinking of the brain. For me, that in itself should alarm us. If we think of our jelly-like healthy brain drying up that it starts shrinking, you end up with a personal conclusion that your brain may lose it's power to operate. I.E. Forget things. Since the brain is the storehouse of information, and I imagine the healthy brain compressing or shriveling up, I also end up imagining the informations inside that brain shriveling up until it is gone to nothing. No wonder people with this disease forgets. 

Simply put it, I think that the reason why someone with Alzheimer's die is because of the face that the brain has forgotten how to live. Then before that, the patient may have lost the will to live, seeing that he has no more recollection. The thing is, I think it would feel like you have ceased to exist since you know nothing about you... Again, purely ideas...

Frankly, I am glad that no one would ever read about this blog seeing that all I am writing maybe pure foolish thoughts to people who really knows but still, I just wanted to write my ideas across.

I wonder, it seems that Alzheimer's is a disease of the recent century, based on the rising numbers of people with Alzheimer's now and then, it seems safe to assume that Alzheimer's developed as a result of the world's industrialization. Again, I am saying that I know nothing. I did not do any kinds of research on this. It just seems common sense to add things up and come up with your own hypothesis like this. However, it should most likely be due to the fact that this disease was not yet named until 1900's which would translate to unaccounted cases of Alzheimer's during the old days. Forgetting that little thought, industrialization would have started somewhere between the 18th to 19th century, meaning it just had about enough time to cause a new change in people's lives thereby producing a new epidemic. Again, nothing here but purely fictional ideas from me.

Then, I am writing because I was thinking about Alzheimer, but since I easily lose interest, I would stop here for now.

Ciao!


Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Chapters of My Life: A Smart Ass Biography (Preconception)

Why do I want to write a biography about my life? At the very least one of the reasons that I could come up with is that, everyday, I am becoming more and more forgetful. I wouldn't wonder if one day, I wake up not even remembering a thing from the past... Maybe I also wanted to leave something behind that tells of my true feelings and thoughts and how I conceive reality and things that happened or is happening in my life... I am thinking of putting up 4 to 6 sections in this little project although I still have no idea how I would come up with the division.

Anyway, before I begin to once again get tired writing or typing  I should put up a draft or some really really rough outline.

What I think about Love (in a single person's point of view), Family, & Friends.
How I view the world & how distorted my truth or other people's truth is compared to mine.
My childhood & my Dad who, as they say, did not acknowledge me.
My stepdad who never wanted me to call him Dad.
My personality which seems to irk everyone around me and how fake I feel.
My Mom who falls in the same category as above.
My thoughts about how a parent's love is not really equal as they say it is...
How I think, as a child, someone should take care of his kids. I was a child brimming with ideas on child-rearing...
How as a child, I could easily understand sex-related jokes, and how I think these kinds of thinks happens (due to a person's intuitiveness)
How I lost my childhood friends through distance.

During adolescence
About crushes and how I hated how it makes people totally stupid.
How I always to this time and again... distancing myself to the people I have formed bonds with.
How I would use underhanded tactics to gain friendship
How I keep daydreaming about romantic things & wake up & do the total opposite.

Life as I know it today

Monday, March 21, 2011

More than anything, I must learn to love myself so much that I will never get intimidated by any men. I must learn to love myself to earn true courage not the flimsy mask of pretend confidence and bravery that I wear that can be hardly detected but easily broken upon application of pressure.